Dear Kaybitch,

We feel the same thing and have the same problems coincidentally at the same time. We talk and think alike. Read each other's minds. Share the same thoughts and beliefs. And it's a not a surprise whenever we felt the same thing and how we dealt with problems. From seventh grade until now. Well, we grew apart, but this happens, right? To all best friends. But it's okay, because we'll always be there for each other. Well, I know I will for you. I know I can be stubborn, pessimistic, and hard to deal with. But you stayed by my side through all the tears, laughter, defeats, and accomplishments. It's been almost four years. Four years of giggling, happiness, craziness, obstacles, misunderstanding, fights, cries, everything. But we stuck through. If we can deal with all of that, we can deal with anything. I was looking at the picture you gave me for my birthday. Framed up. You and me, smiling. But behind the smile, I remember what we talked about earlier. And it made me laugh. Because everything that made us miserable a few months ago...are what's making us happy now. You learned that you deserved way much more than you were receiving, and so letting go and moving on will bring you to what you deserve best. I learned to cope and pursue my happiness and that I, too, deserved more. To not let someone bring me down.

We've been on different pages, different paths. I have to admit something. You hurt me. When you told me that I have weakened..I was torn apart. And so I've put this wall to protect my heart from you. Before,you never judge me. You always defended me, and knew why I did the things i did. You were the only person that I trusted my feelings with, but all of sudden, you looked at me differently. I didn't understand. I was left confused and baffled. Because you were always there for my lows, despite everything. But it seemed like everything we went through, was wasted... That I was weak, when I thought I was strong due to the journey and obstacles that you and I went through together. So whenever you asked me what was up, I pretended that nothing was wrong. I didn't know who to run to, I didn't know who to turn to. You weren't there anymore.You said that I never considered your feelings, but how am I supposed to do that when I can't even pick myself up from my own disoriented feelings? I'm sorry for being cold, but I'll get over it. It's just a phase. Let me figure myself out first.

You and me. We've grown. We've changed together, but ironically, as independent individuals. You have track/cross country, Ap spanish, and I'm sure other clubs. And I've accomplished of being treasurer, juggling with AP/honor classes, and a boy in my hand. Compare to life now, then how it was ten months ago, it's different. We've got different priorities, but dont get me wrong, you are still one of them. I'm sorry that I take you for granted when I'm caught up with my life. But I only do because you've become such a comfortable, trusted element in my life and so I forget to appreciate you. I hope we patch things up, and become normal again because you're the best of all the best friends I've ever ever ever had. Bffae: 2:33

Forever and Always,

Helen Ho