take a deep breath

Today's the meteor shower and I'm pretty down that I'm not going to be able to see it tonight and I've been anticipating for it since two weeks ago. The upcoming one is in November, which is so long from now. heh. I was supposed to go to Karen Le's to go biking today, but plans got canceled, rescheduled for tomorrow, and headed out to Diana's instead. Moving day is in 3 days, so I won't be neighborhood neighbors with Dsam anymore :' ( But we'll be both driving soon, so it's all good. a few streets further isn't bad. This summer is ending in less than a month. It started out good, and ending okay. I feel like I still have to do something before it does. Finish the 101 list? Heh. I'm afraid to bring it up; it doesn't feel like it means anything anymore. Things feels so different. Is it just me? Anyway, I want to get back into painting and all that artsy fartsy stuff especially since I lost all my paintings, and I don't want to lose touch with the techniques. Is it possible to forget to do what you used to love?

I wake up every morning and ask myself why I feel the way I do. Confused. But it always gets worse at night.
I had something.. and lost it all on my own. I had my whole heart and soul, but now I'm not sleeping cause I can't chase back time. I've lost all strength and energy to keep pushing on.