suffocate

It's almost 1 am and I can't fall asleep. My thoughts are mixed and I'm frustrated on how disorientated I'm feeling. I don't know where I'm going with this, but I have the need to blog. After the conversation with Diana today, I feel a little better that I am not the only person that has notice the changes high school has brought or maybe it's just the factor of time. With the constant factor of time, comes in with the constant factor of change. Things feel different, out of place, and I can't seem to go back to the blissful person I used to be. I feel like every time I try to soar high, I get shot down. I can't trust anyone with my feelings, and I feel alone. I can be surrounded by so many people, yet there's no one to turn to, no one to talk to. Family, best friends, and a boyfriend, yet I feel lonesome. I don't know. Behind all the jokes, laughs, and play. I feel empty, like there's a missing part of me. I want to feel complete. Completely happy.